心慈cindy

peaceful

2010-01-05T00:30:00.000-08:00

Is it difficult to have peaceful in daily life?i just desire to have peaceful in my life, y need me so trouble?i cannot take peaceful because of my brother's hair. His hair was long enuf and being cut by discipline teacher.He was angry and became mad. He threw anything he took. He nearly to throw my pc on the floor.i felt so frustrated because of his attitude. Because of hair, he became insane;because of hair, he didnt wan to go school.He just ignored our advice and continue to explode....y i cannot have peaceful in my holiday.i only have two holidays in my home.i wan enjoy my holiday before start my new sem.y need me so trouble...so frustrated...i hope my bro can improve a lot in his study...i hope he can has a brilliant future in his life...

改變

2010-01-03T21:57:00.000-08:00

新的學期就要開始了，有很多事情我都需要更改，那就是我對朋友的看法和觀點。經過一連串的事情，我終于想通了，不要太介入朋友之間的事情，大家都是朋友，沒有分等級。我個人是個蠻沖動的人，很情緒化，這一點我也需要改變，因為一旦被人氣著，我就會大發雷霆，不得收拾。^^我比較喜歡直腸子的人，雖然講話很直接，但是沒有心眼。雖然說話很容易得罪人，但是只要明白他人是這樣的，我個人覺得這種朋友才是會對你好的朋友。我希望能有這樣的朋友^^雖然如此，我還是很珍惜我的友誼，沒有朋友，就沒有現在的我。友誼萬歲！！！

Year two sem one is goin to the end...

2009-09-20T05:24:00.001-07:00

Time flows veery fast...this sem is going to the end soon. We have three month long holidays. During this holiday, i will have a internship at kl with my best friends(eileen n peiwen). It is my first job n i am very happy having a new life at kl. hopefully everything will be fine n successfully. However, during this sem, there are many unhappy things happened around me like friendship problem. but, i learnt a lot from this. i know how to differentiate good n bad. The most memorable in this sem is i had a cute boyfriend(jin). With him around, anything bad will be gone. i m not fear anything because of him. He care me very well n i m really wan to thank to him. Wish our love will be forever. This sem is really a hard sem. Five subjects really make me cry n tension a lot...however, i still can handle it. Anyway, i hope next sem i can have a fleely study weeks(even though i know it is impossible) hahahahahaha...but i can handle anything because

who am i, I m cindy!!!

stress enough lately...

2009-08-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

stress--one of challenge that i need to meet. i fear to face stress. nowadays, i cannot control and manage my stress. i suffer stress coming from two factors. one is study stress and another one is friend. i m tired...and no mood to care anything...all i think and worry now is final exam...however, even though i said ii wan concentrate on my studies but sometimes i will automatically to think some problems that i face now.
how can i do now?
i dun wan to think anything...
after accident, i found myself very unlucky...there are a lot of unhappy events happened on me.
i wan to escape anything...
i m tired and dun wan to think anything ...

he is a gud bf...indeed

2009-08-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

even though sometimes i felt that he control me a lot...but indeed he treat me very well. He did anything gud for me. I know wat he did for me. I understand y he control me this ...control me tat...actually i n one that need to be controlled by someone. this is due to my behavior. I m easily influenced by my friends sometimes. But with him around me, everything bad will be impossible. my love increase day by day....maybe i will rely on him...

finally start...

2009-08-05T03:05:00.000-07:00

today morning around 3-4am i started relationship with him Hence it is a very very special day for me. I felt sweet with him around me. I think i will not regret for my decision. In short, loving him forever. (pgy,eileen...dun envy me o, quick to find ur Mr Q la...hahahaha)

決定

2009-08-03T01:22:00.000-07:00

一直以來都不想去想這個問題，可是現在必須想清楚了。我到底怎么想其實我不清楚，喜歡他還是？？？想了一個晚上，我覺得我應該知道自己心里的答案。我怕做錯決定，昨天塔羅牌告訴我必須隨著我心里的想法來做決定，應該沒問題吧～全部人好像在等著我的答案，讓我好壓力.....這個決定我想我應該不會后悔吧～是時候說了...

今晚就跟他說清楚吧～不想再去想這個問題。希望他不會受到這個答案的影響

i sacrifice a lot...

2009-08-02T03:27:00.000-07:00

i sacrifice a lot for this competition. first, i felt happy still hv chance play the netball. However, now a little unhappy. i feel happy because gain the second prize, i feel a little disappointed because i think i can perform my role better...but my team...not very geng actually.I sacrifice my bus tickets, injury, my studying time because of this game. I know i ady well done in this game. This is the first time and also the last time i join the competition. but, netball definitely give me gud memory since my secondary school. i love netball.

finally

2009-07-24T02:51:00.000-07:00

Finally i can sleep well le.....i cannot sleep well for a long period since i start my many exam...no enough time for me at all for my exam preparation, however, luckily still can handle them well. only sleep that i chose as my scarification. so sorry, Mr sleep, now i just gt time for meeting u...sorry...i can breath now as i ady finish my all exam for these two weeks. Still gt many exams waiting for me, but i can handle these challenges, i believe myself. Yeah, gambateh, cindy, go ahead!!!!

worrying

2009-07-19T00:18:00.000-07:00

i ady 21 years old, but till nw i didnt hv any working experiences. There is a problem that i scare now, i never worry about this before until i need to hv a industrial training. I suddenly discovered the important of working experience. I didnt hv confidence to apply some companies especially those famous one. I apply pathlab but i worry i fail to gain the chance for working there. All my friends hv enough precious working experiences. But i didnt hv anything...i worry this,worry that, worry anything. I really hope i can successfully enter a company that i desired n working there. I not scare for meething any challenges or problem during working, cos i wan gain experiences. For me, they are precious rather than my academic result. However, i hope my dream will come true. i will try my best to perform anything well. i will preserve utar reputation as well as i can.

dependence

2009-07-18T06:17:00.000-07:00

dependence? will i depend on him too much?will this become my habit?suddenly i scare i will drop into one deep cave. too much dependence is not good to me even though i hope he did it to me. He treat me as well till i feel warm and...studying outside alone,i wish hving someone accompany me around, the appearance of him make me feel that i m in love. I cannot be like tat, i need control myself. (因為擔心會把他對我的好成為一種習慣,我的私心會作祟，會太依賴他）

我的想法

2009-06-28T03:25:00.001-07:00

看了韓劇花樣少年之后，感觸真的很多。希望自己能像金絲草一樣，見到一個這么棒的人。雖然是偶像劇，但是女生都是希望自己能有一段很感人的愛情故事。只要真心愛著我，溫柔體貼。。。只要他能這樣對我，我就很滿足了。有沒有錢不重要，最重要的是他在乎你。希望有一天自己能成為一個很幸福的人。太幻想了嗎？沒錯我自己也是這樣認為。因為世上應該沒有這種男生了吧，絕種了吧，哈哈哈！也許這出戲對我影響很大吧！自己以后的真命天子會是怎樣的人，我對著很好奇。。。但是，我應該不會像很多吧，重要的是學業，愛情不重要吧，我還是學生不能這么快進入愛情世界里。

有点不开心

2009-05-22T23:32:00.000-07:00

我已经很久没见到我弟弟了，每次我回家他就读书，他回家我就在金宝，要见面的机会真的很少。但是下个星期我弟弟陪我回去金宝，虽然开心，但是害怕会舍不得。。。会哭。。。会难过。。。相处时间真的很短，很短。就没见面了有时会忘记，但是才刚见面又要道别，说真的真的很不开心，我希望我能够坚强一点，不要哭，在金宝要勇敢下去

还是很像弟弟～呜呜呜呜～

my loving three weeks holiday

2009-05-15T20:14:00.000-07:00

After three month stressful assignment,midterm test and final exam, now i can be a free living bird,flying around without any limitation. Although three weeks holiday is not long, but it is enough for me to relax...i will cherish my three weeks holiday. Watching ppstream,shopping,sleeping...hahahahahaha will be my routine activities. but i will miss my kampar friends every minute and second...c u next sem.

happy.....

2009-05-04T02:47:00.000-07:00

just now i go out bungkus my dinner...i saw him...i thought he will disguise no see me n no greet to me...but i was wrong...he greet to me n call me cindy...at that moment, i felt happy as i scare he still angry for me...now everything is over...nothing happen...i relieve already...huhuhuhu

holiday plan!!!

2009-05-03T02:43:00.000-07:00

1. sleep at least 10hours a day^^ wan sleep a lot as no chance to sleep again for next sem^^relax
2. shopping!!! i wan buy some dresses...formal suit...short pants.....^^next sem can wear to school...hehehehe
3. go to singapore...long times no go to singapore... find my friends there^^miss them a lot
4. whitening my skin......^^(although impossible but wan try maybe can...)
5. secret* ##$$%% related to my bf^^
6. miss my kampar friends every minutes^^ dun touch o
7. family BBQ

this sem is going to be over...

2009-05-02T20:48:00.000-07:00

during this sem, there are a lot of events that happened, something good something bad. For this sem, the most happiest is our friendship become stronger than last sem, i also close with some friends like kahswin, hong leong, weijin,weikang,eric them. i really really appreciate this friendship n will cherish it as well. This sem i passed my every barrier relaxingly. Maybe this is due to my friends around me...they give me power to continue my way.Thx a lot dears...however, also gt something bad happened for this sem. We cannot endure someone's attitude, interaction......i learn a lot here...i learn how to communicate with such people. God is fair, he will give me chance to meet some good friends, but also give me chances to meet some bad friends...hahahaha
this sem, i didnt close with my housemates, huifeng n biying. maybe timetable r different, seldom meet n chatting. hence, i spent most of time with my coursemates.
Anyway, i prefer coursemates than my housemates...hahahahahaha^^ peiwen,eileen,peisin,shifern,huitian,wanching,reid,weijin,kahswin,hongleong,weikang,terenxe,eric edwin...luckily gt u all around me ....i love u all!!! i appreciate can know u all n wish our friendship forever

is tat ridiculous???

2009-05-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

sad...mooly...crying because of him???hahahahahahahahaha, it is not valuable kk? be normal, cindy dun be like tat! it is not valuable for u to do that! cannot imagine i will cry because of him...my honey n peiwen's advise are rit...no need to be like that...it is over...everything is over...i must happy everyday...stop thinking about that...think for ur properties of matter...it is more important!!! gambatei cindy!!!

now i m moody...

2009-05-02T06:10:00.000-07:00

a little sad...a little moody because of him...i m so sad because i dun know wat happen between us just because that word???i dun know...i no mood to think it...i just feel sad i dun wan to be disgusted by anyone here...hence i just try my best to maintain my friendship with anyone...as i think friends are important. but i just give him commend dun wan to call my name like this voice, y he cannot accept n angry for me...i feel so dissapointed to him...i didnt hv any meaning...i no dislike him...he is my friend ady...but he treat me like tis...i felt so sad...because i treat him as friend, hence i felt dissapointed when he treat me like this way..............................................................

pengajian malaysia

2009-05-01T23:03:00.000-07:00

finish my pengajian malaysia paper today morning...happy i still can answer the question( as i langsung no prepare enough for it)...but i ady did it as well i ady try my best to do it...so i no feel guilty for this subject leh...now still leave one subject...properties of matter,i wish can finish all my exam as fast as possible...as i wan start my journey to langkawi...i cannot wait it...hahahahaha...when i feel stress, i will think for my trip...then my stress will be disappeared...all my friends, listen here...i will buy some souvenirs for u all( chocolate???) hahahaha, anyway hope i will have unforgettable memories in my trip then...muak!

low class and high class???

2009-04-30T19:36:00.000-07:00

it is so ridiculous always heard someone said he is high class...v r low class...i cannot endure again his childish thought...n shoot him bek" r u sure u r high class? u really think u r high class guy izzit?dun ever give commend that v r low class as u r no right!!!"he didnt know he ady say wrong...actually he is immature at all but disguise he is so mature one...sometimes i feel so........(cannot explain). i really wan to ask him that does he understand the meaning of high class n low class. He think that listening to the classical music make him belong to high class...wahahahahahahahaha...so funny n childish...wahahahahahahaha...if he again saying that v r low class then dun blame me...i will not give u face n shoot u throughly face to face!!! plz remember it!!!dun ever try my endurance...

disgusting.....

2009-04-30T08:52:00.001-07:00

dun blame me always shoot u...because u so "good" in ur communication n interaction. originally i think everything is over n wan maintain a good friendship between us but u break my hope already...i didnt wan too close with u...i really hope can ask u one question...did u realize that ur communication gt something problem or not...did u realize that everyone wan escape from u or not...Actually i know ur answer, u realize all about that but u just choose escape from facing this problem...how pity u r!!! I EVER MERCY ABOUT UR SITUATION BUT SOMETIMES I FELT THAT IT IS INVALUABLE FOR ME TO DO THAT AS U R...... i cannot imagine ur attitude...cannot imagine....maybe ur mum n dad didnt teach u about good interaction or maybe they too manja u...haiz~

let me explain it to u...

2009-04-29T18:43:00.000-07:00

now i would like to explain my previous passage about i gt feeling to someone...actually it is just my immature thought n the feeling is incorrect...cannot exist between me n him...however i ady forget about tis n because it is impossible between us...it is my secret n i would not tell anyone...i hope this secret will bury in my deep heart...no anyone know about it...i wan this feeling to be over...all are over ok???sometimes i will feel ridiculous y i will write my secret out...hahaha...i wan to relieve...it is so tedious for keeping secret inside my heart( as i always share secret with eileen,hahahaha), so....haiz~anyway, in order to avoid my secret expose, so i delete the passage that i post a few days ago...sorry everyone...hehehehe

finalllllllyyyyyyy...

2009-04-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

finally my motor n bicycle are taken for repair...haha...old motor a old motor dun give me problem again a...i need u always...i will care for u but u can care for me mah????my pity bicycle...leave u alone as rubbish there for a few months...sorry...now i wan to repair u n u can refresh again as new bicycle...i promise i will not leave u alone....u all r my main transport...haiz~

is tat true i do that?

2009-04-26T16:22:00.000-07:00

in order to avoid same problem happened on me, i tried to escape sumthing, it may gud for me as i dun wan let me again involving in one one love game...haha...however, when i recall it, i felt so funny...y i m so stupid,y i m so amorous...yyyyyyy???i also dun know myself...i ever ask me y i wan involve in this game...because for fun or...but now i m sure that it is for fun,yup...no other meaning...because of fun...but when i saw them closely,y gt jealous feeling...no la is envy because sweet ma~~~hehehehehehehehehehehe...cannot like that, i must content for everything i have now...maybe i m still not mature n it is only a wrong fancy...

以前的我

2009-04-25T01:15:00.000-07:00

在還沒來utar讀書之前，我可是一個不懂怎樣和人溝通的人。。。我除了我那些很要好的朋友之外，其實我沒很多朋友，應該很難相信吧，但是這是真的。剛開始我認為朋友不是那么重要，但是這個想法是錯的，我現在才發現到一直以來都是我這個觀點害到我不想認識其他朋友。以前的我好傻哦，哈哈。。。但是自從我來utar讀書后，我的人際關系那方面我改善了很多，因為我曾經對我自己說過不能再這樣下去，如果繼續當以前的cindy，那就不會有朋友。我來到這里認識了很多來自不同地方的朋友，我覺得很開心，我們的友情慢慢的在建立起來，很多朋友都對我很好，這點在我很欣慰。在這里我嘗試了很多我之前沒做過的事，所以留下了很多美好的回憶。來了utar讀大概半年，我的hometown 朋友都說我變了，也許我的性格變了，不再那么木納了吧～我希望在這里能和我朋友友誼永久。很想對他們說一句話：“ 能夠認識你們我真的覺得很開心，也覺得很幸運，我選擇utar是正確的，希望我們的友誼永固，愛你們哦”。

dun know how to explain......................

2009-04-25T01:09:00.001-07:00

actually i keep one secret in my heart for a very long period...before i really wan to conceal this secret but now...as our friendship ady maintain in stronger relation, then i felt guilty not...actually i am....it is very hard to speak my these words out...it is my fault...is my aspiration to have...is my fault i know.......but maybe it is ady too late.....late for explanation....haiz~

my lovely home

2009-04-24T22:09:00.000-07:00

i miss any corner of my home...my home is the most comfortable place...it is like i will be covered without wondering anything...at there gt my lovely parents...brothers...friends(especially my bf) hehe...i miss my mum cookies...my brother's jokes...my bf's sweet caring...my friends meeting...i miss carefree life there...

finish one subject ady ....hahaha

2009-04-24T21:56:00.001-07:00

my burden change loosely more after finishing bio exam...a lot of things that need to memorise...now my brain can relax for a while...hahaha, but still gt four subject waiting for me...i will gambatei n try my best to do the best...anyway...times will pass as fast as possible....until the last day of final exam...release all!!!! BBQ, K room, Langkawi trip..................

labtest again...

2009-04-12T15:58:00.000-07:00

Haiz~this sem's subject make me cannot breathe liao...i wan relax...i wan relax...assignments...quiz...midterm...labtest...presentation...all come together...i cannot hv my own time to do my work...all the times spend on studies...i am so busy this sem...and seldom bek my hometown leh...miss my home...miss my dad and mum...miss my little brother....miss everything there...
my home............................

feeling sad for my badminton competition

2009-04-12T15:53:00.000-07:00

feel sad...i wan forget everything that happened during badminton competition...from this competition i learned one thing...before doing some decision...must male sure that v can do it well or not...and not just follow the emotion...it is wrong...i regret to join this competition as being laugh for not hving techniques in badminton...i will not angry anyone but just angry myself...i think it is my bad memories...and i will not play badminton again in my life...i promise...

In short, i didnt wan recall everything that happened on that day...i wan forget them...

unforgettable badminton competition

2009-04-12T02:37:00.000-07:00

today i gt one unforgettable badminton competition. From this competition i learned many techniques from the opponents and also from my friends.my technique in badminton is very poor as i didnt practice badminton before and also dun know the rules of badminton.Therefore, i face many challenges and barriers to play my badminton as well. I scare i will become barrier to my teammates...hence i try my best to play this competition...as the result, although i cannot help my teammates to win this competition but at least i already tried...sorry, friends i cannot help u a lot...i feel sad....

Start my happy holiday

2008-11-06T00:34:00.000-08:00

After final exam ,i start my 3 month holiday. During final exam,i am so stressed. i set a target for my exam so i need to work hard in order to achieve my target. After exam , i become back myself,haha...relax,enjoy... nothing wondering...happy everyday...However , i will not waste my dream holiday,i will cherish every minutes,every seconds,i will upgrade myself everytimes...